Tuesday 30 November 2010

假期闲在家……

玩遍九州后,觉得自己的腿不是自己的了,可是那份回忆是珍贵的……
虽然如此,我仍然坚持每天早上都跑步……
我喜欢享受早晨的微微发出的阳光……
阵阵的凉风迎面而来,很冷,可是却把我从懵懂中呼唤醒了……
每每看见晨跑的uncle auntie,都会向他们打招呼……
早晨给人一个欢笑,给人一声招呼,可以让自己心情愉快(一声宏亮的招呼也可以把半睡半醒的晨跑者唤醒):P……
回到家,开始做家务了!
洗衣、晒衣、煮饭(真的是煮饭罢了:P)、扫地、抹地、种花、拔草、浇花、看书、看戏、面子书、跟妈妈聊天、跟弟弟哈拉,跟妈妈弟弟吵架、听妈妈倾诉等,占了我大半天的时段……
其实时间并没有糊里糊涂地过了,因为我都在做日常生活的事务……
我好喜欢这样的感觉,呆在家里,做一些很不起眼的事情……
其实,我很羡慕可以到处去玩的朋友们……
国外国内玩透透……
可是,我有太多顾虑……
其中一个,我想要留多些时间陪伴我的妈妈和弟弟……
爸爸不在了,弟弟恋爱了,妈妈很寂寞……
她口口说:“你们去玩啦!呆在家里干什么?”
其实谁会了解她的心情……
那份空虚、寂寞,会把人逼疯……
她在世间的时光不长久了,我不想留下任何遗憾……
当然,另外的,是钱的问题啦!
我有努力去找工作,上网、询问等,
可是只是得到个“吉”……
*苦笑*
我真的很想出国旅行,并带弟弟和妈妈出国去旅行……
妈妈这么老了,只是到过北邻国和南邻国去……
弟弟长大了,也应该看看国外长什么样,好让自己有个新目标……
每次,妈妈都会说:“谁谁出国旅行……”
我问:“你是否很想去?羡慕吗?”
妈妈说:“没有啦,我怕旅行很累……”
我心想:这是骗人的……
妈妈喜欢比较,生下我,我也喜欢比较……
我不喜欢输的感觉,可是理想归理想,现实是现实……
我看着天上星星的同时,是否也应该站稳自己在土地上的脚步呢?
这样我才不至于摔得乱七八糟吧?
我能够怎样呢?
我只能够尽量安抚她不平的心灵……
我呆在家里,可以给她安慰……
失意时,大家一同哭泣……
开心时,大家一同分享……
尽量不让她做家务…… 
我只能做的只有这些了……
妈,您付出的,实在太多太多了……
我承诺,
以后的日子会好过一些……
祝福您,也祝福我自己……
请给我力量,继续往前冲!

Friday 19 November 2010

Be an idiot...

Hiya, it's me again! 

Hehe, guess what I m going to say in this post?
Deng Deng Deng Deng...
--> 3 idiots's impressions... :P
When I switched on fb today, there was a lot of status regarding '3 idiots'...
Well, so coincidence that all of us were watching the film together? mentally ya... 
When I watched the trailer posted by someone in fb, "Ahha, that's it, another inspired movie by Aamir Khan after 'Every Child Is Special?"
K, to clearance your view, both of the stories mentioned are regarding with education...
People seems to be forgetful, and I m...
Hence the film 'Every Child is Special' is not on my mind now...
By the way, I will refresh it during the already holiday... 
Haha... :P
3 idiots, a special and remarkable title, seems to be same with the story...
It leaved an extraordinary thought for me... 
Back to the plot, it was about 3 different friends who came from 3 different families' background and study way...
One of them was always be an inspiration to other two...
When they were linked together, something happened...
There was joy, joke, fear, faith, believe, love, trust, courage, dedication, and last but not least, tears... 
I do not like to comment much on this movie...
Cause it is really worth for you to have a look on it!


P/S: It had made my days! Cheers~~ 
 

Thursday 18 November 2010

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollow

All right everyone, a new film released!

That's it --> Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollow...
Well, I already stayed in my room for ages...
Hence, watching this movie is compulsory for me in order not to die suffocating... 
Went to cinema, alone, this morning...
I m quite afraid not got into time because today's buses seemed not to be punctual enough...
The time shown was 11am and the bus not yet arrive...
For my information, the film will be started on 11.45am...
Phew, finally, I got it, the ticket... 
This is the second time that I watch the HP's series without any knowledge about the plot...
The first episode and the last one... 
Thus most of the time during the movie, I kept on twisted my mind to think of the relationship between the characters...
It's really need a lot of patiences... Haha...
And some more, the cinema was so cold...
It's nearly freeze my mind to stop functioning... :P
Though the story was just for part one...
But there was already adventuresome... 
The characters had a host of conflicts between themselves, and jealousy...
It also made my heart beat increase... 
Not much different with the horror's movie...
The part one's story ended with Voldermort broke Dumbledore's tomb and grabbed away the wand...
For me, the story became darker and darker...
Not because of the return of The Voldermort...
But, is the vanished of the nature between three friends...
Want to know further? 
Go and watch this movie or read HP's series, u can figure it out yourself... 


P/S: Continue my Detective Conan... :P   
 

Thursday 11 November 2010

Unsatisfied...

I already battled for four days...
I kept on reminding myself when I was standing on the battle line...
"Please use the time well..."
I did always bear in mind...
But still,
came out with unsatisfied...
This semester's paper, all made me mad...
I do not have much time, even for a breath...
Too much things to express, in a limited duration...
When I express it out, I care...
Though it was over and better be concentrate on next paper...
But I used to think about it...
I care, I really care about it!
Feel like myself is a loser from now...
&*%$#@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


P/S: Come on, cheer up... This is not the end of the world, k?

Saturday 30 October 2010

老虎出游记!

事先说明……
此老虎非彼老虎……
此老虎乃大头老虎!(更厉害的……)

早上……
“一点要和老虎聚餐吗?”
“只是聚餐罢了,大家都要温习功课哦!”
经过多番波折,我们一行六人就到附近的餐馆用餐……
婆婆妈妈,餐馆名字……
好有创意!

当然,三个女人一个岖,四个女人加上两个“姐妹”就不只一个岖了……
用餐只是辅佐,三八才是王法!:P
当中让人难忘的是男女踩到粪便时候的不同表情……
这只老虎,真的很与众不同……
因为他除了头大之外,也很爱演……:P

拍照留恋后,我们移步到Minyak Beku 海滩,老虎要摸鱼去!
间中,我们也停下来,在城市中的Batu Pahat地标拍照留恋……
来往的车子一直在嘘我们……
老虎,你一出笼,全Batu的人都来看你咧,你高兴吗?:P

到了目的地,停下车子,我们找阿明去!
首先直奔番石榴档,回味当天我们曾经吃过的番石榴!
吹着海风,吃着番石榴,拍照摆pose,虽然有点疯颠,可是我很喜欢……

走在情人桥上……
大家都不理会头发有多乱,身体有多黏……
往目标:“拍照!”冲去……
连拍了许多自恋的、活泼的、疯癫的、疯狂的、危险的、正经的、搞笑的,应有尽有……
这就是所谓“全能的教师”吧!
据说,有伴侣的,不能走到情人桥的尽头……
所以我只是到码头的尽头前一点点就停下来了……
宁可信其有,不可信其无……
我还要爱和被爱!^_^

今天的行程,从吃午餐演变成吃晚餐……
我们:“学长,我们赌上自己的pointer咧,我们多伟大!”
老虎:“是啦,很感动咯!”

他就是这样,不会讲很感性的话……
每次,
他都会笑我、咋我……
看见他就是没有好“康头”……
讲话也会被他气死……
可是,
我不知道,
如果以后少了他与大家作笑打骂……
日子会变得怎样……
不敢想,也不想去想……

熟语有云:“天下无不散之筵席”……
这席散了,我们就期待以后的另一席吧!
祝:
“学长,毕业快乐!考试加油!在师途上站稳脚步,向前迈进!”
谢谢你哦!

P/S:也祝你拿到柔佛州!:P 我会记得你的名言,“老鹰在大海中也只不过是一只苍蝇……”

Monday 11 October 2010

生日……

首先,先要祝今天的生日寿新——丽萍,生日快乐!
21岁咯,祝安好!^_^

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今天在食堂拿菜时,不知不觉地拿了许多青色和白色的食物,咋看之下,简直就像生病的菜色……
就是因为自己不挑食,才会长到如此“健康、肥美”……
生活(不说人生,感觉太庞大了),也不就是如此吗?
不挑食地过生活,把生活里形形色色的菜肴都当成是美味佳肴,也许就能健康成长了……
有时候难免会吃错食物,弄得自己上吐下泄,也就是传说中的“oh(泄)到七彩”……
可是难过始终都会过去的,看看医生、戒戒口、休息一会,然后再继续吃……
而且,身体已经受到病菌侵害,痊愈后,当然也就是百毒不侵了……
何乐而不为?

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看了旋的部落格,
今天是你的生日……
黄仁谦,祝你生日快乐!
这是我第二年祝你生日快乐哦!
你相信重生和天堂……
我相信投胎和极乐……
其实,无论是重生或是投胎,都是一个生日……
因为,你已经是以一个全新的自己出现了!
只是,你的生日仍然在今天?还是在6月16日呢?
可以告诉我们吗?^_^

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今天也是我的生日,今天也是大家的生日……
因为……
“今天的你,不是昨天的你,
今天的你,是个全新的你!”
祝大家天天生日快乐!^_^


P/S:虽然已经结束了伟论,可是今天仍然是丽萍的大日子!小姐,今天你最大了啦!哈哈……:P

Monday 4 October 2010

Wow, a pack week...

Jote down the to do list first before i forget... 

Monday: Rehearsal for the performance, preparing for 2ml's micro teaching (physical education), thursday's exam...

Tuesday: Micro teaching, preparing for exam on thursday, last preparation for 2ml's performance (though i m just a tiny character)...

Wednesday: Big day! (Performance on), preparing for thursday's exam...

Thursday: Exam! (Still not yet confirm the time), packing to go home...

Friday: Going home!! ^_^

*Hope that everything is fine before the exam, don't suddenly give us some 'special items' and 'unforgettable surprises' before the exam... I afraid much... Pls, don't...

P/S: Hope that everything will go smoothly... No more thunder...

Friday 1 October 2010

I m back...

Lost at least few weeks...
The latest post was about something academic...
2day, think will b sharing about m camping days which were just finished yesterday...
Well, the camping was compulsory and as a member of red crescent (once upon a time was a st john), i was so excited to go for the camp anyhow...
The camp was last for 4 days...
Straight to the point dear all...
The first day:

  • Packing all the stuffs to bring there such as wok, pan, cutleries, tent, gas, and etc...
  • Going there with bus...
  • Cleaning up the leaves with stick...
  • Set up the tent...
  • Choose the tent to sleep...
  • Gathered with all the participants like KPLI's and others members like KRS and scout...
  • Cooking in the rain...
  • Doing the gadget in the heavy rain using bamboo...
  • First in my life time doing so much of gadget...
  • Drawing the group's flag...
  • First time in charge of centric...
The second day:

  • Wake up with tiring body...
  • Doing some practices about CPR an chocking...
  • Doing some practices about transportation...
  • Marching...
  • Sketch...
  • Presentation about flag...
The third day:

  • Cooking breakfast in the rain...
  • Doing demo of CPR in front of audience...
  • Kembara...
  • Step on "bull shit"... (cowdung)
  • Doing the stretcher wif sarung... 
  • Singing burung kakak tua...
  • Singing sarawakian's song...
  • Blaze nite... (camp fire)
  • Playing a lot of games wif Mimie...
  • Sleeping on the ground beside camp fire...
The forth day:

  • Dropping the tent under a heavy x 100 rain...
  • Running in the rain...
  • Packing all the things with friends...
From the camping, i realized that:
  • There must be a rainy day when my group's turn to cook...
  • Everything must learn from young, such like cooking... :P
  • When participating the camp, must make sure that u still young... :P
  • Put the luggage in the plastic bag to prevent it goes wet... :P
  • Learn how to sleep straight...:P
  • Learn how to bath with sarung on body...:P
  • Learn how to fight with rain...
  • Learn how to scold people in a good manner...
  • I met with many friends...
  • I m tired... :P

Thursday 16 September 2010

欢迎善者,恶者若用善语也欢迎!

距今约五千多年前,在地球的北半球出现了一个族群。他们活跃在自己的土地,学会了钻木取火、渔猎农耕、发明了文字、创造出自己的文化,建立了自己的国土。他们,就是最早的华夏民族。烽火轰鸣,硝烟迭起,朝代的更替,眼看许多世界的文明已渐渐被吞噬时,唯有它仍屹立不倒地耸立在前方。它,就是历经了五千多年历史的中华文化。
中华文化,民族根本;薪火相传,源远流长。除了在黄土上辉煌,它也路经了丝绸之路,穿过高山,越过海洋,在世界各个土地上开枝散叶,大放异彩,并为世界的发展做出了无数的贡献。中华文化最突出的,就是其和合性、智慧性及创造性。它重道义、讲人伦、活入水、重发展,精进不止,自强不息。知识里含美德、,美德里含启发,知识和启发,都相辅相成。
然而,随着时代的迈进,中华文化知识似乎已渐行,渐远,渐无声了。在许多外来文化的冲击下,许多年轻人都少了中华文化的气息。同样是有着黑头发、黄皮肤、流着的是炎黄子孙的血液,可是口中到的、眼里看的、心里想的、肢体做的,都并非中华文化的优良美德。试问,“忠、孝、仁、爱、信、义、和、平”,我们做了哪几项?再问,“礼、义、廉、耻”,我们拥有了哪一环?
身为一位华文教师中华文化知识对我们是非常重要的一环。当我们拥有华夏民族的美德,就可对学生起到潜移默化的作用,让他们跟随教师的良好品行去走生活。它不仅让我们拥有智慧性的处事态度,中华文化知识也成为了我们的教材之一。在学生学习的过程里,课文难免会有几篇是与中华文化画上等号。小学生的阅历浅,认识的事物不多,因此需要教师的深入解释来理清思绪,认识新知识。中华文化有好多领域,如传统体育、乐器、戏曲、舞蹈、文学、节庆、礼俗、艺术等知识,都可成为学生的课外知识,增进他们的视野,也让他们可以从中获得中华文化的熏陶。
要学习中华文化知识,我选择了“持续法”来完成我的学习过程。所谓“持续法”,就是持之以恒地学习某项知识它可以是持续阅读、持续参与讲座、参与培训班、参加生活营等,学习再学习,实践再实践。经过持续性的学习,我们对该知识的记忆会更深刻,学习目标也更容易达成。在这项环节里,我选择了持续性参加中华文化营”作为我的学习中华文化知识的方法。我的个案较特别,是选用了过去的学习过程来作为学习新知识的桥梁。
一开始,我询问陈润卿讲师有关我学习方法的贴切性和准确性是否达标,因为我也是觉得有些奇怪,怎么会有人拿以往的经验当成自己如今学习的知识。据陈讲师说,我的方法虽然是参与过去的生活营,可是我的参与是持续性的,没有中断。我从2005年开始参加中华文化营一直到现在,从以往的营员、筹委晋升组别督导,身份的改变,也代表了知识不断地累积,而这种目的性、持续性的参与,就是学习中华文化知识的方法。因此,在写学习过程报告里,我记录了在六年里(2005-2010)在每一届中华文化营所学习到的中华文化知识,以及记录其讲师阵容、知识内容、学习步骤。
中华文化营,其宗旨是让青少年透过中华文化认识自己并自我提升,是我中学母校——雪州加影育华国民型中学的年度活动之一,对象是在籍中学生。此活动的主催单位是雪州乌冷县中学华文科课程委员会,而承办单位则是加影育华国民型中学家教协会暨华文学会。 在开始筹办时,此营只是开放给乌冷县的中学生。由于参加人数不断提升,它也成全国性的中华文化营了。虽然说对象是中学生,可是中华文化知识,部分都是要从基本功学起,因此也引来了一些大学生、老师、家长等的旁听。
在未踏入中华文化营时,我都认为它是一个极度沉闷的生活营,我也对自己说:“中华文化营,一定没有刺激的游戏、来参加的人一定是很文静斯文的、每天都一定是听文学讲座、历史等。”。在我还未真正接触中华文化时,我都认为中华文化没有新鲜有趣的活儿可以做,我想这些看法如今也同样出现在年轻子弟的脑海里吧!然而,直到我参与了中华文化营,我才发现自己的想法有大大的错误,而且是大错特错了!中华文化营,非但不沉闷,从中我还可以透过许多机会去学习前所未碰的知识。
在中华文化营里,主办当局都会请来在中华文化领域里资深的学者作为各个单元主讲人,我也把这些当作是一个千载难逢的学习好时机。在各个中华文化的领域里,学习的人数多,可是真正掌握该知识的人却屈指可数。因此,要当个指导讲师,必定要在中华文化不同的领域里有非凡的成就以及经验。透过他们的经验之谈和学习心得分享,当成学习的概念。他们一路走来,都是碰了许多钉子才获得学习的知识和各界的肯定。所以,若根据他们的学习经验,我们可以把它当成借镜,避免重蹈复撤,并让学习之路事半功倍。每一届的中华文化营里,都会出现一些比较静态的讲座如文学创作、生命的价值、作品导读会、电影分享会等。在这些讲授较多的环节里,主讲人都会与学员们分享如创作的心路历程、看电影的观点等等。在讲座里我都会仔细聆听他们的讲授,然后记录在笔记本里,作为以后的一个参考。他们的心路历程未必是我要追寻的,他们的看法未必是我要接纳的,可是他们的热忱和精神都是我要敬仰、学习的。若没了他们,我也不晓得原来本地创作已逐渐看到阳光;若没了他们,我无法得知原来世界上还有这多有意思的电影等着我去评析;若没了他们,我无法知道世界上最“響”(响)的声音就是“鄉音”(乡音);若没了他们,我不知原来生命因“孝”而亮丽;若没了他们,我更无法了解人生真正的定义。
在任何学习过程中,实践是非常重要的。学到新知识后,我们必须透过思维的转化,将它运用得体、恰当,知识才会巩固在记忆中。中华文化知识,除了在文字上的知识外,它也少不了实践性的知识。那些知识如扯铃、茶艺、相声、文学创作、陶艺、武术等都需要实际性的应用,我们才可看出该人的知识掌握程度到底有多深。持续性参与中华文化营,我拥有更多的实践机会,更深入地学习已在理论上获得的片面知识,如茶艺。在第七届的中华文化营里,其中一个环节是茶艺。在理论上,我们都了解茶艺就是选茶、品茶、泡茶、奉茶的艺术。我们也理解茶具的应用和泡茶的过程。然而,在实践的过程中,我们往往都无法掌握理论上的要素。泡茶时茶具的摆放以及正确的握法、泡茶过程的细节等,都要透过实践才会让我印象深刻。再者,鲜少学员在家里都有一套完整的茶具,而完整的茶具价钱也不菲。因此透过在中华文化营的实践,学员们可以在学习后就直接运用知识,而并非要特地去买一套茶具专门练习。此外,在实践的过程中,主讲人都会积极巡视、观察,看看哪个学员的泡茶技巧错误、茶具握法错误等,然后就当场给予纠正,更改学员的错处,警惕他们不再犯错。这其实也起了记忆的作用。在实践课里,我都会积极争取机会实践,虽然有时候会错误百出,但可以学习之余,又可以巩固我的记忆,何乐而不为呢?
2005年至今,参与了六届的中华文化营,知识也不断地累积,身份也一直在改变。当一位营员,他的责任是参与活动;当一位筹委,他要负责准备活动和参与活动;当一位组别督导,其责任除了要协助准备活动、参与活动,他也成了一位小导师,负责解开组员们对中华文化的一些疑惑。当我接到老师发来的简讯,说我是今年文化营的组别督导时,我欣然接受了。因为我觉得,我已经在中华文化营里“浸”了多时,是时候要把自己“晒”干,让所有的水分都分发到空气里,使空气更潮湿。虽然当工作人员很忙碌,有时候甚至要缺席一、两堂课,可是我仍然会尽量把事情妥善尽快地处理好,让我有更多机会去学习中华文化知识。当我成为督导后,我会确保自己时时刻刻待在组员的身边,让他们遇到问题时可以向我提问。能够回答的,我会尽力把自己所知道的让他们知道,理清他们的思绪;无法回答的,我会私下询问主讲人,然后再把答案告诉他们。其实,我会更加鼓励他们积极发问、自动自发争取机会,因为毕竟学习是自主的活动。
参与了六届的中华文化营,我认为,要学习中华文化知识,最重要的,是自己的那份坚持。有着老师们以及学生们的坚持,中华文化营才会有七届之久的历史;主讲人们靠着自己学习的坚持,他们才可在中华文化各领域获得卓越的成就;有着先辈们的坚持,一点一滴地把文化从以前追述至今,我们才拥有最完整的中华文化知识。因此,有着这份坚持,我也把六届中华文化营所学习到的知识都写进课业里。在写学习步骤报告的过程中,我必须把长达六年前的记忆都放进了报告里。虽然说我在每个部分都有记录,可是记录有些是断章取义,不太完整。因此,我也靠着以往的中华文化营照片和影片,来启发我的记忆。之前,我曾告诉陈讲师:“若我的记忆模糊,那么我的学习过程岂不是不完整了?”,陈讲师则告诉我:“其实你的记忆还在,只要有着那份坚持的心,你一定就能把六年之久的记忆再重新写出来,因为它已经在潜意识里了,只是需要一个动力来启动。”
在中华文化营里,我除了可以得到中华文化知识,我也可以感受到中华文化的美德。感恩,中华文化历经了五千多年的历史,仍然生生不息,绵延不绝。文化的根,可以扎得稳、扎得深,都有赖于先辈们“前人栽树,后人乘凉”的信念。他们秉持着“忍”的态度,最后全都变成了“韧”。让我印象最深刻的莫过于是舞狮界的权威——萧斐弘师傅、华教的灵魂人物——莫泰熙老师、乡音的采集者——张吉安先生、二十四节令古创办人之一——陈再潘老师(小曼)、儒家学者——张子深老师(张弓)等。他们持之以恒为中华文化献上一份力,真的让我感动万分。他们对文化有“仁”,因为他们热爱文化,誓要把它的优美传承下去,让更多人受益;他们对文化有“义”,即使历经多少风雨,他们仍然对文化不离不弃;他们对文化有“礼”,因为他们懂得尊重文化,善用文化之意;他们对文化有“智”,因为他们懂得如何摘取中华文化里的精髓来过生活,让生活富有意义;他们对文化有“信”,因为他们一旦传承了文化,就对文化誓不放弃。
感谢那些协助我的人——陈润卿讲师、杨靖耀老师、所有曾经参与中华文化营的讲师阵容、朋友们、营员们,因为你们,我学习到我想要的;也因为你们,我找到了自己的坚持。

Tuesday 24 August 2010

乱乱来……

不上面子书是好的,
最起码我不用在这星期做临死的挣扎……
虽然平时已经在挣扎了,
可是临死前的那一断似乎比较痛苦……

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心情怎么怪怪的?
假期要来了,
应该是很高兴才对……
为什么就是无法高兴起来?
总觉得酸酸的、苦苦的……
该去哪儿找乐子啊?

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徘徊在同一条道路上,
走不出来……
每次很怕睡觉……
因为睡觉一定会梦……
我不想梦……
现实生活累人……
梦更累……
我讨厌!

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请原谅近期的我……
这边未完成就要顾虑那边……
脑子不停地转动……
下一秒的事情已像影片那样浮现在我脑海……
尝试让自己静下……
可是在静下的那一刻……
我睡着了……
第二天又悄悄地走来了……
重复第一天的忙碌……
永无止境,才是进步的空间……
难道停下来,就是退步的表现吗?


P/S:大便……



Thursday 19 August 2010

What's wrong with me?

Facebook is no longer be with me...
And I have forgotten that I actually still 'bond' with blogspot...
Plan to post something here...
But I have too much to express...
Just make some selection...
Well, this semester, I have such a miserable days...
I don't know what's the reason...
Always appear in my mind is the bad thoughts...
I m trying to make the days not so annoying...
But still, I failed to make it...
Lingering between the misery, I m still in the maze...
KNS&^%$#@...
I really want to shout out a lotttttttttttttttsssssssssssssssssssssss of bad words...
3 years already gone, yet, I still apply the same thoughts...
Why can't I change my mindset?
Why don't I love my age and my life?
Why m I keep on blaming?
Why don't I reflect myself?
A lecturer asked me today: "Why have you turned into a quiet person in this semester?"
Ya, a good question...
Me too don't know how to answer about it...
My miserable thoughts have changed my mouth into steel...
Hard and heavy...
Sometimes I feel like my speeches are pointless...
And I even have a hard time to organize a phrase...
I have some curiosities in myself too...
"What's wrong with me this semester?"
"Do I really want to be cool and calm?"
"Do I try to avoid revealing by people?"
I m not trying to find out the answers...
Because it maybe too hurts...
All I want is --->

I
Need 
Breathing

Friday 30 July 2010

远方……

忍耐,在远方……
快乐,在远方……

积极,在远方……
冲劲,在远方……
我,在远方……
愕然发现,
你们都随波逐流……
到一个遥远的地方……

喂,飘到远方的,
请不要离我太远……
我担心,
我会将你们遗忘……
把你们打入冷宫……
让你们在我的潜意识里消失……
在我的生命里没落……

那时候,接引我的,
会是彷徨,
会是茫然,
会是无趣,
会是散漫,
会是愤怒,
会是无情,
会是凶狠,
会是暴躁,
甚至,
会是死亡……

喂,飘到远方的,
若你们不停的飘啊飘,
务必要停靠在一个真正的避风港……
请别回头……
因为恶魔不值得被怜惜……


P/S:我只是路人甲,用途是用来充充数……

Tuesday 6 July 2010

OMG... Onoz...

When seeing the word "My God" or "Oh no"...
Seems that nothing good is happening, happened or will be happen... XD
Ya, it is true indeed...
A long waiting list for me to overcome the new semester...
All assignments nearly assigned to all of us...
The fighters are not ready yet, but the fight will begin soon...
My weapons are still at home... :P
Is thinking that I shall upgrade myself to become a knight...
Riding a horse is much more better...
And faster...
By the way, hopefully I won't fall down and hurt myself... 
Allowance not yet get so I don't have extra money to do the treatment if I fall down... :P  
Bye, I want to have a nap now... 


P/S: Caffeine's days are just around the corner... Be prepared! 

 

Sunday 4 July 2010

一周年快乐!

昨天到巴生的 Jusco Bukit Tinggi 去逛逛,临去前还向洁士琳学姐示威……结果兜了好久,都找不到那地方……
停下来吃午餐,问路……
靠着一个善心人士所画出来的地图,
我们到达目的地了!
这 Jusco 有三层……

嗯,蛮大的……
停车位多的是呢!
只可惜,美中不足的,
它的地板瓷砖已经膨胀起来了……
多处可以见到维修启示……
晚餐我们则在 Sunway 地带的韩国餐厅解决……
哇,是很饱足的一餐……
两人叫了兩套烧烤套餐,以为就只有烤肉等……
怎么知道,忽然间……
侍者捧着一碟碟的小食上座,桌子都不够放了……
而且还有特别的烤肉服务,真是贴心…… :P
只是有人在旁边,吃得比较拘谨·……
我们好不容易把一些菜肴吃完,然后侍者将盘收去后,
不久又有人拿新的一碟东西来……
哇,我们的心里直喊 “停!”……
原来吃完小菜后,要添加是不必付费的……
可是,何必撑大我们的肚子呢?
餐后,还有甜点、饮料……
价钱呢,当然也不菲……

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很快的,不知不觉,
我谈了一年的的恋爱……
这期间,甜甜蜜蜜、平平淡淡、吵吵闹闹,我们都经历过了……
然而,对我而言,
这是一个成长的过程……
因为从中,
我学会了忍耐、付出、体谅、谦逊……
我会继续努力的,加油!

P/S:万岁!

Friday 2 July 2010

Lady's Coach...

At home now... :P 

Well, juz now back with KTM...
Had a first journey in Lady's Coach...
Wow, I like the environment in it...
Though the box is still the same, but I like the silence pace...
Courtesy is shown always... 
The most important, I can listen to my MP3 clearly... :P 
Haha... 

Wednesday 30 June 2010

Am I Free?

The answer is 'Never after holiday!'...
Though busy, I still can breathe well for this moment...
Hopefully for the next I still be a survivor...
Time is always my immunity...
I m still a "L license" holder before approach to the teaching career...
I should spend my time wisely after all...
Do the right thing vs Do the thing right...
Both of them seems same but the aren't...
For example:


Eat
Do the right thing --> You eat when you are hungry...
Do the thing right --> You choose something delicious to eat so that won't feel sorry to your stomach...


Sleep
Do the right thing --> You sleep when you are tired...

Do the thing right --> You sleep on the bed instead of sleeping bag in your room...

Relax
Do the right thing --> You relax when you are tensed...
Do the thing right --> Boys play DOTA or sports and Girls read novel or magazine...

Over all...
Do the right thing --> You may eat, sleep and relax when you are bored or tensed...
Do the thing right --> You are required to escape from the dream that you can enjoy yourself...

Get it? 
Got to go now...
To do the something right...


P/S: Please don't booooo me... :P 


Sunday 27 June 2010

Going Back Soon...

Counting from now...
I still left 11 hours at home... 
After 11 hours onwards, I will made myself in the journey to school again...
I dislike the feeling of staying at home long and facing the moment when the school re-open...
How to describe it?
Really lack of idea in describing the feeling...
I had a wonderful day again before going back...
Watched the International Ice Skating Competition at Sunway Pyramid (In a sudden), attending Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra at KLCC (Well planned)...
To the skater, you all did a good job and already tried your best...
What you have earned from this competition is an valuable experience...
So, train harder and perform well next time! 
And now I realized that after a skater finished his or her performance, relatives, friends or somebody will throw some flowers, bears, socks, cookies and etc. to the skating rink... 
Well, quite funny when I saw these... :P 
About the MPO performance, still, wearing formal attire...
"Glory of Trumpet" was the theme for the nite...
It was great and memorable...
The songs played were all in optimistic air...
It enlightened my gloomy mood (also known as 'back to school phobia')...
Think I m going to sleep now...
Though I still not yet finished packing my food into the luggage... XD
Nitez world... 


P/S: Head ache... 

 

Tuesday 22 June 2010

Appreciate...

Nothing special these days besides lingering between d sadness about Joash's gone...
Following the latest news about their funeral and keep Ying Xuan update...
Well, think my mood is having recovering session and it have changed to a better condition...
It is hard to accept a death, but it is a must to accept the reality...
"They have escaped from the sorrowful of life," This is all I m thinking about...
So, cheer up and live with smile every day just like he did for us!
About his gone, again, I learnt about appreciate...
Appreciate what u have gained with no doubt...
Treat the people around us sincerely...
Be grateful to life...
We do not know what will happened next second...
All will be changed in a glimpse of eyes...
So, live with no regret! ^_^

P/S: Laughter is the best medicine... :-)  :-D  :->

Saturday 19 June 2010

祝你一路顺风……

星期四上午,一通来自外国的电话号码……
可是我没接到……
"可能是颖璇……" 

星期四中午,中华文化营在进行中……
' 1 message received '...
朋友:“Do you know Joash Wee?”
我:“Haha, ya, i know him, y? :-)”
朋友:“How u know him just wonder.”
我:“Oh ic... Hmm, Joash is my fren's fren... Haha, knew him since last 2 years i think... :P”
朋友:“Oh i see. He has passed away due to accident.”
我:“Wat? When?”
朋友:“This morning. Car accident...”

当我看到这则讯息时,我傻掉了……
我愣在那儿,久久无法恢复……
我赶紧检查前几封讯息,多么希望朋友说的 Joash Wee 不是我认识的那位 Joash Wee……
拜托,让奇迹发生,一定是我看错了,不可能的……
我把消息告诉佩珊,她也把消息传给了颖璇……

原来,早上那通电话真的是颖璇打来的,
她要告诉我的就是关于Joash的事情……
原来,我没有看错信息……
那个Joash Wee真的是那位Joash Wee……
顿时,
我哭了……

对他的记忆,停留在两年前……
那时候,颖璇要到学院拿成绩,后到办事处去处理出国念书的手续……
凑巧,我与他就通过颖璇的介绍认识了……
两年之今,我们才见过两次……
那天吃午餐和晚餐,以及之后到机场目送颖璇登机……
及往后只通过面子书联络……
如是而已……
可是他就能让人留下深刻的印象……

我对他的认识,并不深……
在我记忆里,
他有个非常中华文化的名字-黄仁谦……
仁与谦,乃中华民族的美德……
这美德,完全体现在他的身上……
他爱他身边的每个人,至少我的朋友对他的评价是正面的……
他不会去说人的是非,当要求他对某人给予评价时,他总会微微笑,让疑问从微笑中化解……
他很谦虚,从他的身上找不到半点架子,让人觉得很舒服……
虽然他不谙中文,可是当他与我们谈话时,也尽量用华文……
他的笑容,可以让人温暖……
他精通音乐,时常会参与教会的表演……

车祸五死三伤,毁了天伦,也断了友谊的绳索……
看着报纸的报道、读着面子书朋友们的留言、回想起他的颜容……
我无法隐藏自己的悲伤……
事实摆在眼前,我必须去相信这是真的……
我哭得很凶,连颖璇都似乎在笑我了……

以农历的日子来看,
他跟爸爸的忌日是同一天……
看来,
农历五月份对我而言,
是个伤心的月份……
爸爸、大姨、四舅、外婆、Joash……
都选择在农历五月,
化成为了我的记忆……

朋友,安息吧!
1987 - 2010,是你在世上的辉煌期……
你的精神将永驻世间……
只要我们还有呼吸,就代表我们还有记忆;若我们有了记忆,也代表你仍然存在……
你还在,你就活在我们的心中!



P/S:谢谢安娣的报纸……

Friday 4 June 2010

Raining Morning...

Aiks...
Though I like raining...
But rain god, can u make it at nite please...
My jogging plan all spoiled...
T.T
K, do some houseworks sounds a good idea...
Let's go...

P/S: Anyone who want to gv a help hand? :P Good day everyone...

Wednesday 2 June 2010

我烫卷发了

嘻嘻,昨天陪同朋友到理发店剪头发……

霎时,心血来潮就问问老板我头发的长度和厚度适合烫卷发吗?
他说适合,而且只需要一个多小时……
就在学完瑜伽后,我就匆匆忙忙进入了理发店……
烫啊烫、卷啊卷、洗啊洗……
当把夹子脱下时,
哇,我简直无法接受自己烫卷的样子……
T.T
赶忙叫老板帮忙补救,如何不要这样卷……
急救完毕,还好比较不卷的卷发出现了……
哈哈,谢谢老板……
他还要载送我们回学院呢,可是当我们要上车时,巴士就来了……
烫了,就不要后悔……
豁出去了,人谁没有第一次?:P

P/S:我还没告诉妈妈和弟弟咧,会不会吓到他们一跳啊? 

Monday 31 May 2010

星期一的早晨

闹钟响咯!
起床打开窗口,
凉凉的早晨……
让人精神爽朗……
我深信:
“心美,看什么都美……”
平时课业、活动、考试……
都霸占了我不少光阴……
曾经停下脚步来歇息一会儿……
可是觉得顿时罪恶感加倍崛起……
以前的我可以不把考试等当一回事……
还记得SPM临去考中国文学时,我还在家里打 O2 Jam……
现在咧?
变成了好多好多东西的奴隶哦!
自己的原则去了哪儿呢?

自己的心被许多事情蒙蔽……
自己的心不再美丽……

所以,看什么都觉得不顺眼……
是个过渡吧?
我自己也搞不清自己真正的性格……
双子,没有一个特定的性格……
善变又善辩……
时时刻刻都为自己的改变找借口……
其实最没有自信的是自己……
可不是吗?
无论如何,加油拨开自己心中的尘埃吧!
让心可以呼吸,健康成长!


P/S:心中有很多顾虑,霎时间解不开来……我需要一把剪刀!^.^

Saturday 22 May 2010

生日协奏曲(五)

下大雨,空气萧瑟寒冷……
可是我的心,却是暖呼呼的……
今天在温习功课时,依旧与永豪信息……
他知道我在十点钟会去打包午餐……
在信息里,他阻止我去买午餐,说要陪我吃……
他今天到底怎么了?似乎有些怪异……
我不疑有它,以为他是在逗着我玩笑的……
怎知过了不久,他发来了一个“刺激”MMS……
照片里的主角是他,可是重点是,他拍照的地方!
那不是长途巴士的座位吗?
哇,我也傻掉,因为根本没有心理准备……
由于下大雨,打响雷,我步行到学院外搭巴士,因为担心他人生地不熟……
雨真的越下越大……
不久,他打来说:“我叫德士去Maktab的巴士站载你,你不要乱跑哦!”

去BP Mall的路上水灾,车子难行……
德士司机将我们停在BP Mall的工厂附近,我们就只好走路去BP Mall……
在Sushi King里,用了暖暖的热茶,整个人也舒服多了……
一开始,有些不高兴,我:“为什么不告诉我一声,让我计划一下?”
他:“要给你惊喜,让你考试更有精神读书……”
我:“可是你来,我又无法陪你一整天……”
他:“没关系,我其实也打算下来陪你吃顿生日午餐后就回家,因为我知道你要考试……”

吉隆坡到这里,
三个小时半的车程,不便宜的车票,来回就七个小时,票价也升高,
都只为了要陪我吃生日午餐(短短一个小时半而已)……
我的泪水,
在他的目送下,
决堤了……


P/S:刚才的午餐,虽然很赶,可是很幸福……谢谢你送的小狼,要称它为“狼狼”还是“蓝蓝”?他是你的间谍吧?哈哈,我会对它不客气的……

生日协奏曲(四)

生日快乐!

哇,今晚的头脑乱了……
还未到12点,生日祝福陆陆续续到来……
到了12点(其实自己忘了已经12点),走廊的灯忽然暗下来,房门一打开,“祝你生日快乐……”响起,慈欣舒华贞玮彩霞玉珍、在睡梦中被叫醒的晓婷捧着小小可爱的Mario杯型蛋糕,插了蜡烛,替我唱生日歌……
蛋糕,我和玉珍一人一个,都是五月宝宝的恩赐……
心中暖流一直淌着……

与永豪聊天……
“你要听生日歌吗?”
“要!”
“好的,那我要唱咯!1、2、3……”
听见他的歌声,随后伴着钢琴的旋律……
奇怪,是谁在弹琴啊?
唱了,旋律完了,问道:“谁在弹?”
“我,用家里的电子键盘(Keyboard)弹的……”
“你会?” 
“不会,上网学的,Youtube有教。”
我傻掉了,愣在那里……
心底的暖炉,又再次被他启动了……

谈着谈着……
忽然间,看见自己前方有红光……
往后忘,
又一波的热流来袭了!
丽萍、Kelly、秀娟、佩澌、慧盈、思宁、嘉欣、晓慧等人捧着芳邻“相思蛋糕”站在我身后,唱着生日歌……
移步到我的房间,双语生日歌又再次响起(玉珍和晓慧是唱最多遍的),永豪也在电话里一起唱……
当然,也少不了踩脚仪式!

谢谢你们的礼物,我真的很喜欢!
丽萍、Kelly、秀娟、佩澌、慧盈、思宁、嘉欣、晓慧合送的书包,名为“小猪”……(因为它长猪肝红)
玉珍、晓婷、彩霞合送的书本,几米的《向左走·向右走》……
慈欣、舒华、贞玮、京城、林翊、俊杰合送的书本,刘墉的《爱要一生的惊艳》……


这次的生日真的非凡!
因为:


  1. 我21岁了,我跟家人在一起有21年了(爸爸的爱护之意、妈妈的养育之恩,弟弟的陪伴之情)!
  2. 永豪的生日蛋糕和为我弹奏生日歌(我真的当场傻掉了)……
  3. 颖璇从纽西兰飞来的心意和手艺(你回来要向我拜师学艺)……
  4. 洁恩学姐的爱心(冒雨买的)巧克力“突击”蛋糕……
  5. 万能班党员的精心设计(你们真的很会给人惊喜)和礼物……
  6. 晓慧的生日歌(我还在听)……
  7. 老师和讲师的祝福(yoga老师,那天忘了对你说教师节快乐!Encik Zel, trima kasih ya!)
  8. 朋友们和同batch朋友的祝福(请你们务必要对号入座哦)……
  9. 学长、学姐、学弟、学妹们的贺词(你们也是在忙考试)……

谢谢你们,让我的21岁生日在有意义的夜晚度过了……
我爱你们!
此时此刻,我真的脑残了……
我真的不懂如何说谢谢的话了……
我心存感恩……
希望我的喜悦可以为大家带来一点点正面的磁场!


P/S:妈妈,刚才您叫我自己搭巴士到街上买Secret Recipe的蛋糕自己吃的那见意,我看看啦!

Friday 21 May 2010

生日协奏曲(三)

我收到了来自晓慧的礼物……
是三首不同风格的“生日快乐”……
听了……
心里觉得暖暖的……
阿信、刘若英、韩国小孩……
其实比不上一个洪晓慧……
你的心意,我收到了……
淡淡的幸福,随着窗外的清风,触动我心灵深处……
在梦里,我会倾听你隔着墙壁送给我的祝福……
顿时,我觉得我真的好幸福、好幸福……
谢谢、感恩、珍惜……

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这里要介绍一个人……
她每次都会陪我度过我生日的最后一刻……
她说,别人都选择做前锋,当生日随着新一天的来临渐渐被人淡忘,她选择做那个后卫……
两年的生日,她都会出现在我房门前,捧着礼物,微笑示意……
在房里,我们会聊个天南地北……
也许没人会懂得这些……
这似乎成了两人之间的秘密……
如今,我把它公开……
因为我想向她致谢……
莹盈,谢谢你的陪伴!


P/S:Facebook的生日贺词渐渐增加,谢谢大家的祝福!我会好好过……

生日协奏曲(二)

Update一下……
到 BP Mall 吃午餐回来,谢谢玉珍和晓婷的款待——旺角……
之前说好只有我和晓婷去车站换票和吃,之后去 BP Mall 买东西……
玉珍忽然间说要跟去……
我就奇怪,平时考试时期不出去的玉珍竟然要出去?
我:“不用紧啦,你要买什么,我帮你买咯!”
珍:“没关系,我一起去啦……”
然后到今天,玉珍又说:“我们去 BP Mall 吃哦,没有去车站吃了……”
我也不疑有它,傻傻应:“哦!”
原来你俩已经串通好了,等我们在旺角安顿好后就说:“其实我们要请你吃一顿庆祝……”
菜单来了,你们又不给我选便宜的……
哼哼,我就选最贵的啦!:P
说真的,我真的有些吓到……
吃了午餐,肚里饱饱的,口口道谢,其实真的不懂该说什么了……
无法用言语,就用写的吧!
“谢谢你们的款待,我好感动……”
希望在以后的日子里,我都可以吃得饱饱吧!


P/S:谢谢学弟、学妹、学长、学姐、朋友们在facebook的生日留言……当然,还有那个很不甘愿祝福我的弟弟——陈子谦,哈哈……

Insomnia...

@#$%^&*_!=...
Guess what?
I was having insomnia yesterday...
Memorizing the notes made me more energetic...
Lingering at blog and facebook made me more vivacious...
Rolling on the bed was so torturing...
FORCE myself to sleep or tomorrow I will bcome a zombie...
Well, finally, i slept around 4am...  
AND, woke up at 7.30am...
Again,

@#$%^&*_!=...

And yet, 
Today I received same call again...
"Hello, ini xxx ke?"
"Bukan, salah nombor...."
"Ini bukan xxx yang potong rumput itu ah?"
"Bukan, salah nombor...."
"Potong rumput oh, bukan ke?"
"Bukan, salah nombor...."

Potong rumput again...
I received the same call (but different person) many times since laz year...
Claimed many times that salah nombor, wrong number...
But they still insist...
*Pening kepala*...


P/S: Going out now to change ticket... Hope that I won't b tired... :P 

Thursday 20 May 2010

生日协奏曲(一)

生日,很大咩?

生日,就是很大……
怎么大?
  • 母难日,妈妈受苦把我生下来 [伟]
  • 新生命日渐成长的迹象 [庞] (广义:健康、狭义:胖)
  • 经过了好多年头,思想慢慢成熟 [长]
  • 当天大家都成你为王,为寿星,凡是以你为主 [完]
  • 大家争着要踩你的脚,听说可以让自己走运 [脚被踩肿,变]
这五“大”,可以当理由了吧?
哈哈……
随便在这里哈啦几句,别见怪啊!

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今年来临的生日最特别,因为我已经要21岁咯!
21的象征是什么?
  • 成熟了
  • 稳重了
  • 理智了
  • 宽容了
  • 大气了(小气的反义词 :P)
  • 自由了
  • 可以投票了
  • 以及 tanda-tanda yang munasabah
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生日未来临时,我已经得到几方的祝福了……
谢谢永豪的水果蛋糕,虽然是个小小的庆祝,可是里头有着温馨、幸福、感动,也让我们度过了一个“新”难关,彼此学习了不少。请原谅我的稚气,我应该更加了解你,对不起哦……
谢谢洁恩学姐的“突击”巧克力蛋糕,虽然你说早了,可是这份情意却让我沉浸在快乐以及你纯洁的恩赐里。不需要生日歌,因为我心已经收到了……
谢谢颖璇从纽西兰寄来的蝴蝶项链及手工生日,一开始你说是在旅行时候买的,我就以为是叶子、昆虫标本之类的纪念品(你自己说是有纪念价值的)。怎知来了个项链,哈哈,很漂亮,色彩缤纷,也许你是希望我在21岁里可以像蝴蝶一样,披着灿烂的色彩往自己喜欢的地方飞去吧!谢谢你哦!
谢谢佳霓的提早贺词,哈哈,去年你也是贺错时间咧!不过真高兴,因为在忙碌的日子里你还记得我……
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生日协奏曲还未完成,因为我的生日还未到……
当生日的奏章变成了休止符,这也是我人生新路程的开始了!


P/S:我没拍起来,因为电话的相素不好……

Wednesday 19 May 2010

我要学会成长……

昨天,当希望变成幻影时,
我没有哭泣……
因为,即将21岁的我,
是时候成长,向泪水告别了……
以后不会再用泪水作为威胁武器……
每一天都是恩赐,每件事情都是恩物……
我要学会长大,让自己每时每刻都活在感恩里……
使自己沉浸在爱的调和里,爱自己、爱家人、爱男友、爱知己、爱朋友、爱师长、爱别人、爱万物……
若我一直苦闷下去,那么我会少了爱他们的时间……
不了,21岁,要有所改变了……
成熟、宽容、理智……
我要去找你们了!
嘿,走着瞧……


P/S:悲 = 非 + 心,所以我不要“悲”了,因为我还有心啊……

Monday 17 May 2010

累……

昨天回来后整个人累垮了……
回家不是劳累的事情,所以我把它归纳成自己心灵上的累……
我不懂为什么最近的泪腺很浅……
所以时不时就会让泪水净化双眼……
也许是因为考试前的反常现象吧!
刚才吃饭时候想到……
原来“人”是很简单的……
它由两个笔画组成而已……
为什么我就没有想到呢?
人,其实只要简单就好……
偶然想起张洪量的歌:
“人要永远活在青春期,很多事就没有那么顾虑,
只要你爱我,我爱你,爱来爱去干脆抱在一起……
只要你要我,我要你,要来要去干脆不要分离……”
“人”字是简单的,
所以我必须一切从简……
我不会再向各方面施压,我不会再以我的眼光看世界,我不会硬碰硬的去索取我要的,我不会被自己的情绪控制着,我不会再说无理头的冷笑话,我不会再为自己增添想象,我不会再怀有过分的热诚……
以后,只要一切都好,
我会静静的过生活,我会只说应该说的话,我会以平常心面对一切……
生活是如此简单,我不会把它复杂化了……
今天开始,我放空了……


P/S:考试真的很恐怖,我都被它感染了。Pls,EQ高一点啦!

Tuesday 11 May 2010

Early Morning...

Hiya, today woke up early in d morning around 6.15am...
Hehe, swept and mopped the floor...
Recently, 6 of my frens were quarantined due to H1N1 suspecter...
Btw, juz a rumour and they are pretty fine now...
After the H1N1 disturbance, we are taking seriously about our self hygiene...
Thx our lecturer in providing us the self made enzyme...
We had used it to clean our room... ^_^
Well, come back...
I like to post my blog in an incorrect time...
Before exam, busy wif assignments and etc...
Any people same wif me?
Think like myself is a weirdo...
Hehe...
This year's birthday, ruined again by exam...
Every year is the same since i was form 1...
Books and papers are my accompanyists...
K, i already used to it...
Nothing much to console about tis...
Luckily, i still got wishes...
Perhaps i could quote Wan Wei's word : "Well, I din expect much for b'day when I m growing up, I m happy enough for the wishes..."
Yeah, i should...
And i should stop groaning towards life... ^_^
Thx okasan in giving birth to me...
N grow me up for years...
I gained love from okasan, and I love okasan too...
Muackss...
Happy birthday!
A new life is born and a new life is gained...

P/S: Thx my daddy too who was taken away by God... Your spirit will always remained... We miss u, daddy!

Wednesday 28 April 2010

Tired... ^_^

Juz came back from Yoga...
Tiring leg, tiring knee, tiring ankle, tiring arm, tiring elbow n etc...
Yesterday was a great nite for us...
We won d champion for the theater competition among our batch n KPLI's...
When the 1st runner up was announced, we were sad indeed because we thought tat we had failed...
U know, the competitors were soooooo strong!!
We expected that we could win at first but when we watched the last few groups' performances, our enthusiasm were gone with d applauses...
They were creative and yet, funny as well...
These were the things that we should learned from them... ^_^
When the MC announced that, sound like this "Johan bagi pertandingan teater anjuran... dimenangi oleh, JALUR GEMILANG, dipersembahkan oleh pelajar PISMP BC Semester 3!!"
Wow, I shocked a little while... Then straight away we all screamed like mad... Keep on screaming happily n jumping as high as possible...
Haha...
I will never forget the moment we trained the theater...
Laughter, disappointment, frustrated...
But still, we learned something from it...
Do u guys remember?
We r destined to perform a lot of performances during our life here...
Standing in The Eyes of The World, Merdeka Choir, English Nite Choir (Do Re Mi) as the best performance, Mid Autumn Nite Theater, Champion for Lantern Making Competition, and last  but not least, Champion for yesterday's Theater Competition...
U guys really... Talented...
Thx for leaving d footprints in my life...
I very appreciate of it...

P/S: I want the biscuits roll in the hamper... Leave some for me ya...  
 

Tuesday 13 April 2010

这些我都知道,可是我却没有做到……

当我老了
当我老了,
不再是原来的我。
请理解我,
对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时,
当我忘记怎样系鞋带时,
请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语,
请耐心地听我说,
不要打断我。
你小的时侯,
我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事,
直到你进入梦乡。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时,
请不要责备我。
还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗?

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时,
请不要嘲笑我。
想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。

当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时,
请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。
就像你小时候学习走路时,
我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题,
请给我一些时间让我回想。
其实对我来说,
谈论什么并不重要。
只要你能在一旁听我说,
我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我,
请不要悲伤。
理解我,
支持我,
就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

当初我引导你走上人生的路,
如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。
给我你的爱和耐心,
我会报以感激的微笑,
这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。
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这篇章,我曾读过好几次了……
读了再读,都有不同的感想……
然而,我没有做到……

Sunday 11 April 2010

杂感……

我又回到学院来了……
才把衣服、床单“们”都“晒”好了……
看看自己的部落格……
超久没有Update了……

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每次要从家里回来……
晴空都会被我看成是雨天……(也没有这样够力啦!)
我讨厌这种“显”的感觉……
每次看到朋友,一定会说:“某某,很显哦,又回来了……”
“是咯,在家的时间很快过!”某某答……
是的,在家的时间,似乎被调快了……
还没适应自己回到家乡的心情,
忽然又说要回去了……
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每当要回来学院,
手上一定会捧着大包小包……
打开一看,
食物、食物、还是食物……
闹饥荒似的……
我告诉过自己:“陈芷珊,你可以潇洒一点吗?不要带这么多东西回来,搞得自己狼狈不堪……”
一样的东西,
家里的好像特别好吃、特别好用……
家里的白饭特别香、家里的100 Plus特别好喝、家里的Milo特别浓、家里的洗发水洗了特别滑、家里买的水果特别甜、家里买回来的Peanut Butter特别好吃、家里买来的Gardenia面包特别软……
结果,我就只好出绝招——“硬塞”……
无非是要把袋子塞破……
妈妈和弟弟是帮凶……
带Jagung回去啦、要不要带葡萄啊、橙有三粒nia,因为你没有讲你要回来,所以我们没有买、罐头要带吗、饭这样少够吃咩、鱼这样放会坏的、Milo粉拿去、鸡精咧,拿了吗、你那边制水哦,要带一些水回去吗、要打包什么吗……
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虽然这些日子以来都无法变成潇洒的一族……
狼狈的扛着行李,它并不沉重……
它因为爱而轻了……
这不是一个累死你的爱……
所以我爱、我愿……


P/S:我最近终于有时间看书了……

Thursday 1 April 2010

Nothing to be display...

Juz feel that want to post something here...
Nothing much feeling these days...
Already exhausted with d courseworksssssssssssss...
N every ppl were 'pek cek' during these time... (I dun knw wat's d better word to describe 'pek cek')
Haha...
We could understand as well...
We all nid to rush with all the stuffs...
Compete with d limited time...
Everyday sleep around 3 am something...
While most of us were sleeping and fishing in d class, all know, but juz pretended that nothing happened...
Rushed for d lecturer's steps to get d signature...
Dedicated to my frens...
Congratz, we are still survived, teehee...
Yes, we had passed March!! *Horray!!*
What ever happened during d "hectic" moment should be forgiven...
Come on guys, lets say "sorry" to each other and please, d one who had received gv some respond such like "never mind", "it's ok", "dun mentioned about that" to the apologetic's ...
Yes, we can!  ^_^
N we should... :P
To gain our own 'rezeki' as well...

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Busy life stopped temporary...
Now continue with other small little tiny jobs which is known as 'ISL'...
Wow, a lot to deal with...
N some more...
D water crisis occured... >.<
Nid to carry and refill d water day by day...
Not a light matter my frens...
Think that I already carried for times...
N got little mice on my arms.... *Hyperbole*
Hehe...
Good days every one...
Hope so to me...
N ya...
I would like to say "Minta maaf", "Sorry", “对不起”, "Paiseh", "Dui Mm Jv", "Sumimasen", "Mianda ne"...
To every one which I had made u angry, annoy, sad, pekcek, beh tahan, beh song n etc...
Sincerely through my heart to urs...
Coz we are linked together babe... ^_^

P/S: Going to deal with host of tiny jobs... Tata...

Thursday 25 March 2010

酸爽参半……

今天的散文展览,大家都尽心尽力去完成……
感恩大家……
感恩讲师……
感恩我的组员……
感恩杨老师……
感恩永豪……
感恩我的手在酸痛,因为代表着它还有知觉……
感恩我的脚趾一直在抽筋,因为这代表身体仍然会感到不适……
所以,
我现在的心情是酸爽参半的……

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愕然发现,
原来我还无法让身边的人发出自然的笑……
我好羡慕他们哦,可以看到你的美丽笑容……
一直以来我都自以为是……
认为自己是天下无双……
结果,
我错了……
原来我还是普通人一个……
是时候检讨自己了……

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报告报告时间表:
早上6点起床、冲凉、吃早餐……
早上7点下去准备展览……
早上8点开幕当司仪……
早上9点开始一直到傍晚6点半,泡茶、讲茶、找讲师、打包午餐、泡茶、讲茶、收拾、布置课室,一刻都没有停下来,感觉自己一直在走、站、蹲、跑,很累,也疯了……
傍玩6点半到晚上8点,回房、冲凉、洗衣、晾衣、收衣、面子书、别扭……
晚上8点半到11点,整理课业……
晚上11点到现在,反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思……
反思自己、反思课业、反思活动……
现在到未来,会是个未知数……
没关系,反正今天我失眠了……

明天的行程:
早上8点到4点半,上课……
傍晚7点到某某时候,补课……
某某时候到某某某时候,功课……

后天的……我不知道……

我想让自己暂时化成一缕烟,飞上天……
那时候,我可以到处去流浪……
到时候,我可以时时刻刻陪在你的身边……
那时候,我可以在你心烦时听你诉说……
我可以在你苦闷时吸收苦水……
我可以陪你一起高兴、玩乐……
我到处都是,随手可得,你一把手就可以把我捉牢……
我能够陪你一起度过喜怒哀乐……

我不喜欢让我身边的人为我担忧……
因此,我流泪不会让你看见……
因为我是一缕烟……
每当下雨了……
可能我在流泪……
可是别担心,
在泪水的背后有一座牢固的堤……
它会防止水灾……
别担心,别担心……
“人的眼泪,是一份执著……”
那么烟的眼泪,也许是一份肯定……
肯定了能够时时陪伴它的人……
这是一股喜悦的泪……

Monday 22 March 2010

Class...

Hmm, when we finished assembly this morning...
Our Miss Monitor informed us that today's class until 3pm (for morning session) is cancelled...
Wow, what's the feeling for a person with panda eyes and didn't sleep enough for yesterday? :p
Immediately went back to hostel and changed back to shirts...
Throw my Baju Kurung into the pail for washing afterwards...
*Knock knock*...
Door is knocked...
I will always have a bad prediction when  my room's door is knocked...
"12 pm please gather in class, lecturer is coming..."
Let me throw a light here...
I m always  proud of my prediction...
What to do?
Take back my Baju Kurung from a wet pail...
Luckily didn't wet much... (Yuncks... I also feel geli to wear it again... But no choice)...
Haha...
Life is a pop quiz...
What to do is just always be prepared...
^_^
Nice day every one...
All the best to who starts their practicum's life and first time in School Based Experience as well...
Good luck for me in not being caught by lecturer while I nap in the class later... :P
Though I won't...
But who knows?
"Life is always a pop quiz..."


P/S: Deepest sympathy to our lecturer, though your body is gone, your spirit will always remained...

I m crazy...

Wow...
D time shown is 4.57am...
N I still not yet fall asleep...
@.@
Think myself really crazy with d homeworks...
The craziest is I have lecture on 8 am...
Hmm...
Thinking how to fight for lecturer's sign... (Collaboration form)
Am I able to win?  :P
Think not...
Coz I m exhausted...
Anyhow,
Good morning everyone...
N now I m going to rest for an hour...
Wish me luck... :P

Sunday 21 March 2010

放任“心中”一百次流浪……

今天我给自己的生活打了十分,哈哈……
终于看见了刘轩本尊……
感觉真好,虽然距离有些远,可是他最终也有与观众做进距离的交流……
一身简单但不是风格的打扮让人眼前一亮……
爽朗及富有磁性的声音让人百听不厌……
自信和韧性让他鹤立鸡群……
听了此次的义讲,
我觉得自己又年轻起来了……
沉浸在课业的忙碌里,我的心灵也随这它们的沉重而坠入谷底……
假期实在乐不起来……
也让身边爱我的人操心了……
啊,太不应该了……
白白让心灵挥霍了的假期……

嗯,放任“心中”一百次流浪,
作者告诉我们,
善于利用时间做自己喜爱的事情……
让自己的心灵暂时随着本身的意愿漂流到自己的所好……
这就是让心灵“流浪”……
显然,这不是漂浮……
而是大伙儿必须懂得拿捏工作和玩乐的时间……
工作时,就别想“我现在若在哪里哪里,干什么干什么,那该多好”……
休闲时,也暂时把不工作的罪恶感放在一边……
在适当的时候做适当的事情……
有太多的选择并不幸福……
选择后就不要后悔……

这是我今天的收获……

P/S:真希望我能扮演Disc Jockey……真想让自己尝试不一样的体验……真想让心中的“我”去流浪……真想改变自己的形象……真想来个叛逆的自己……嘻嘻,所以我现在要去梦咯!

Saturday 13 March 2010

My first post in year 2010...

C...
Am I busy indeed or lazy?
Haha...
This semester life starts with a busy day...
The time table make us choking...
I hate this kind of feeling...
But what can I do?
Just bear for it...
Tahan Tahan Tahan...
Hmm, just over my School Based Experience at Sin Ming...
A nice school with nice teachers...
Thanks to them who had helped us a lot...
And a highly appreciation dedicated to Mee Theng...
Thanks for your caring and the pairs of helping hands...
And your precious sharing too...
We are always there for you...
^_^
Just continue with what you think is correct...
And the happiest moment is just around the corner when you move nearer and nearer...
When you are tired...
We are still here to hear from you...
Keep in contact always!

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