Fill in the blanks with your own words. No any evaluation. Please write according to your feelings.

I need courage to fight...
I need courage to gain...
I need courage to learn...
I need courage to educate...
I need courage to be educated...
I need courage to love...
I need courage to face...
I need courage to be accused...
I need courage to scold...
I need courage to begin...
I need courage to confront...
I need courage to be alive...

What will you write is doesn't matter, the most imperative is your - COURAGE...
Find it yourself...

P.S: I m not a loser... I m just rest myself for a while...

今早心血来潮，吃了丰盛的一顿早餐，我、晓慧和淑华就到二手货地摊逛逛，打算重新认识这看似熟悉，但却陌生得很的市镇……
我们左顾右盼，盼望着一些可以让自己不虚此行的好货……
结果是——只得个“吉”……（除了给弟弟的一只小KUMA）
然而，让我们赞叹许久的……
却是个瘦小的背影……

我们正走出小巷，要离开地摊时，焦点忽然就转向了一个瘦小的背影……
先吸引我们的，是他手上拎着一袋又一袋的货物……
里头有大比卡丘、大玩具熊、大玩具兔子娃娃、大型玩具娃娃们、婴儿玩具车等，大约有七八袋的东西……
在归途的刹那，他回头买了一些甜点给自己的家人……
“他应该不会需要这些东西吧？”，“给孩子的玩具？”我们仨不约而同地说出了自己心中的想法……

从他的穿着，我们知道他是一名消防员……
以时间计算，我们认为他是刚从夜班回家的消防员……
瘦小的身子，踏着稍大的黑色靴子，头上的头盔让我们无法看见他的面貌……
拖着身子疲惫，拎着看似沉重的货物……
但是他的脚步却是十分轻盈，是要快点把这些喜悦带回去给自己的孩子吗？
看着他，我的心揪了一下……

回想起爸爸，他也何尝不是这样呢？
每次拖着脏兮兮的身子回家，满脸倦容，但是他提着的钥匙在走路时发出的清脆声响，让我知道他的步伐是多么轻快……
这是他那迫切与孩子见面的喜悦吗？
手中的一些小零食，也是他要带给我和弟弟的惊喜吗？

那时候爸爸的工作不顺心，家里根本不可以出现日常用品以外的东西……
但是，只要能够换得我和弟弟的笑容，
他不管那些额外的开销，也要让我们高兴高兴……
即便自己要束腹，他也觉得这一切是值得的……

爸爸不在了，偶尔都会听妈妈提起爸爸的故事……

保守的家庭让儿时的爸爸活在鞭打里……

贫穷的家庭让爸爸没有享受到甜头……

也让爸爸失去了读书的机会……

为了不让自己的孩子重蹈复辙，

所以爸爸有着一份坚持，那就是：

“不管自己多穷，也要让自己的孩子有高兴快乐的童年！”

“孩子是用来疼爱的，不是用来惩罚的！”

“再穷也不能穷教育！”

“一定要买最好的给孩子！”

所以每逢开学，我和弟弟都有新衣、新鞋、新袜、新书包、新笔盒、新文具、新水罐……

爸爸坚持不让我和弟弟贷书，因为他要我们用新的书本来迎接新学年……

妈妈有时候也拿他没有办法……

这就是我的爸爸，很傻，对吗？

我一直认为自己是天下最幸福的孩子，我也每次以自己的父母和弟弟为荣……

也一直认为傻人有傻福，爸爸会长命百岁……

直到九年前的那天，一场意外夺走了我的幻想，也让我顿时被迫成为大人，活在现实里……

那时候，妈妈、我和弟弟是如何走过来，其实也已经不记得了……

如今，说不伤心，当然是假的……

说要让生命重现？简直是天方夜谭……

也许每天只能希望爸爸能出现在梦里，让我瞧一瞧他，也让他看一看我……

很想告诉他：

“爸爸，我是芷珊，我已经22了，不再是当年的小孩了……我有什么变化吗？”

人已经不在了，才懂得失去的痛……

人已经不再了，才懂得去珍惜……

人已经不在了，才懂得如何去爱……

看似简单的道理，又有谁会真正去实行呢？

看着那心情愉悦的消防员父亲，
虽然我无法看见他的面貌，但我相信，隐藏在头盔下的面孔肯定是带着期待和笑容回家……
就像当年的爸爸一样，拎着一袋冰淇凌，出现在家门口，隐藏着倦容，露出慈祥的微笑，对稚气的姐弟俩说：“哈咯，芷珊、子谦！我回来了！”

P.S.：只能说：“珍惜一切……”

目光锁着暮光……

走向归途……

橙红色的天空，有着一点蔚蓝……

是橙红点缀了蓝？

还是蔚蓝衬托出红？

P.S.：走在哪里，心就在哪里，色彩也随之而改变……

“BC班的女生，请来去丽萍的房间，有大件事！”
什么“大件事”？？
“刚才接到ASRAMA的负责人打来的电话，所有SEM 5的学生在下个学期要搬出去住！”
搬出去？天啊……
当下，我的脑子是空白的……
为什么那么突然？
我要怎么办？
应付考试，已经让我力不从心了……
又来一个考验，更让我无法负荷了……
当然，
兜兜转转，最终还是回到了原点……
可是心情是灰暗的，就如接到消息那样，晴天霹雳……

每一天，我都默默的倒数自己离开宿舍的日子……
宿舍大大小小的事务，都纳入我眼帘……
原来，宿舍的床是多么温暖……
原来，宿舍有凉风习习……
原来，宿舍的书桌是多么结实……
原来，宿舍的橱是多么使用……
原来，宿舍的洗衣台是多么宽敞……
原来，宿舍的水是多么冰冷凉快……

想着……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，跑去朋友的房间替她唱生日歌……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，跑去邻居的房前请求他们安静……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，苦闷时跑到球场或跑到上大肆运动……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，在友人的房间召开妇女大会……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，忘了拿书本就直奔宿舍……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，在课堂的空档躺在宿舍休息……
以后，我们无法如以往一样，可以毫无顾虑的开着电脑２４小时……

少了大家的声音，我会更难眠……
少了大家的进出，我会更恐慌……

少了大家的陪伴，我会更寂寞……

有人说，长大后，寂寞也跟着来了……
因为身边的人也渐渐离开了……
这就是所谓心里头的寂寞吗？

我竟然为此而留下了眼泪……

所以我说，人，是有感情的……

即使是对没有生命的东西……

一些平凡的东西，其实非常不平凡…… 

一些不起眼的东西，其实是最珍贵的回忆…… 

看着考试渐渐要结束，我也渐渐恐慌了……
看着四年的窝，虽然时常嫌弃它……
没想到，竟然最疼爱的还是它……
四年的东西，真的很多……
四年的回忆，更多……
四年的东西，收拾起来还很简单……
四年的回忆，收拾起来比登天要难……

P.S.：真的很希望会有一封信或一通电话，告诉我们：“你们不必搬迁，一切都是开玩笑……”
也谢谢京城所拍下的宿舍照片……它真的很美……

EXAM IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Every time during this term, I will have a lot of feelings to share out...

But NO POINT!

What do I share didn't help in exam...

Hehe...

 (This Helps, Perhaps...)

Life itself is an exam, and we confront it everyday...

If we can counter it, y should we afraid of exam?

Ya, failure is shameful... 

For the exam-based circumstance...

But will u b failed in everything?

No doubt, u won't...

U r surviving in a so called "world"...

With a lot of unknown...

N the survive already made you a winner... 

Good Luck everyone, just strive for the best and forget about the past...

Wat we need is to look forward and walk across...

If we keep on turning backwards, we might fall down due to the careless... 

P.S.: Chicken rice is given away later... Is it a boost for us to strive harder? ^^ Thx to the sponsor... 

He is strong

But

I m not 

But

Who cares?

P.S.: I m fat... :P 

少了蓝色的风车，

就少了其艳丽夺目。

少了蓝色的人生，

就无法拼出五彩缤纷。　

Let's Confront the Blues!! ^_^

P.S.: I like Blue's... 

Well, sound like something is going to near the end...

Not really serious actually...

Is all about my practicum...

Hmm, the folks? 

For me, ya...

Is all about the stories...

It has plots too...

Let's reflect...

1st week: We chat about our student's behaviour and our behaviour towards students... We are so keen about in every little tiny things about students...

2nd week: Some were going to chock themselves and some were not, some were thinking the methods to control the class and some were not, but I M SURE, everyone was doing the best to get a high evaluation...

3rd week: Some were already half dying (ME!!) and groaned about everything... I can made a conclusion here, luck is very important when dealing with all those things... But LUCK IS NOT ON MY SIDE... The conflicts started soon...

4th week: Who knows? No one past the 4th week yet... You urself are the one who make the conclusion... The good or the bad, it depends... Effort? Luck? Not really equal... I mean, the latter is still the main character in whole story... 

Got it? 

The folk, really means a lot to me...

Is an experience btw...

Would take it as a challenge... 

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE...

Share some with me... :P 

P.S. : I learnt a lot! I m not groaning much, just want to clear the bursting stuffs in my mind... 

  

That is my condition 2day...

Everything was twisting 2gether...

I wonder y I m so moody today...

Oh my, I still having practical n the feeling should not b appeared now...

I supposed to b very energetic and vivacious to care with all things...

My thought, my feeling, my action all twisted...

But not as colourful as the twisted pop...

It is worsen... T.T

P.S.:  Everything will b allrite! I will b a very gud teacher indeed... Keke... XD 

C? 

This was wat I could concluded during my 1st time teaching... 

MESS STUFF man... >.<

Ya, children r easy to handle, if u find the way... 

I still in d maze...

Should always study for handling children...

Children, b prepared to welcome a strict teacher...

Haha... 

*Laugh Devil* 

:P 

All d best! 

P.S. : Never mind, after my practical, I will sleep for 3 days 3 nites for non stop!!! XD

Guess What?? 

Tomorrow onwards is my day! 

COME ON ZHI SHAN...

Don't b a coward with hiding behind the text books...

Don't b a bluffer with talking big in front of youngster...

Don't b a bug in maintained half-conscious in the class...

Yeah, now is time for me to get my teaching permit... XD

Everything will b fine and pretty done... 

Happy Practical and The Best of Luck! 

To Whom it May Concerned... ^_^ 

P.S: Will wake up everyday in 5 am... :P 

Well, when I touched my blog, I found out that there r a lot of dust in it... XD *cold joke*
It means, I do not visit it for centuries!
Haha, btw this is my 1st post in year 2011...
Not taken 'busy' as my reason anymore, but is 'lazy'... XD
Sometimes I don't knw y d blog should b appeared...
For shouting out the feelings?
No, I won't...
Though I did, but there was juz a little portion of my splendid anger, disappointment, happiness and etc...
Still, I m not so used to express my feelings to ppl...
I like to hide, juz like a gemini who like to show the differences in front of ppl...  
Time flies...
Things changed...
But I still remained...
Love to family, haru, xuan, frens and etc is still the same...
And yet, other things too... XD
Haha, not to say that I m so conservative...
But there hv no any space for me to change...
K, being capricious again...
No doubt, this characteristic is remained too... :P
The only thing is getting a big change is -> usage of money...

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Japan was facing a huge natural disaster...

Earthquake and Tsunami...

Swept away thousands of life in a glance of eyes...

The following disaster, is the leakage of nuclear energy...

What r us when the disaster smacked down? 

We r too tiny to overcome it...

But I still believe, 

Love can heal all wounds...

We as a human being, are linked together...

Let's pray for Japan, to cope with the hardest time...

B tough, b strong! 

We are there for you! 

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Read a post by my fren...

K, she is being weirdo again...

Feeling sour with the unknown and complicated frenship...  (Should I say 'frenship', pretty? XD ) 

She had overcome some similar feelings...

And yet, the wounds still there...

Hmm, pretty...

Sorry for being silence when u nid me... 

But what I trying to do is stay away and keep u calm... :P 

I know you can get rid of it very soon...

Though both of us like to hide feelings in front of others...

But thanks, you still like to share with me... 

I not really knw how to be a gud consoler...

I m the best hearer btw! XD 

I m there for u always! ^^

P.S.: I will b facing my practical nex week... Feeling nervous... Someone help me out... T.T