生日，很大咩？

生日，就是很大……

怎么大？

• 母难日，妈妈受苦把我生下来 [伟大]
• 新生命日渐成长的迹象 [庞大] （广义：健康、狭义：胖）
• 经过了好多年头，思想慢慢成熟 [长大]
• 当天大家都成你为王，为寿星，凡是以你为主 [大完]
• 大家争着要踩你的脚，听说可以让自己走运 [脚被踩肿，变大]

这五“大”，可以当理由了吧？

哈哈……

随便在这里哈啦几句，别见怪啊！

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今年来临的生日最特别，因为我已经要21岁咯！

21的象征是什么？

• 成熟了
• 稳重了
• 理智了
• 宽容了
• 大气了（小气的反义词 :P）
• 自由了
• 可以投票了
• 以及 tanda-tanda yang munasabah

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生日未来临时，我已经得到几方的祝福了……

谢谢永豪的水果蛋糕，虽然是个小小的庆祝，可是里头有着温馨、幸福、感动，也让我们度过了一个“新”难关，彼此学习了不少。请原谅我的稚气，我应该更加了解你，对不起哦……

谢谢洁恩学姐的“突击”巧克力蛋糕，虽然你说早了，可是这份情意却让我沉浸在快乐以及你纯洁的恩赐里。不需要生日歌，因为我心已经收到了……

谢谢颖璇从纽西兰寄来的蝴蝶项链及手工生日，一开始你说是在旅行时候买的，我就以为是叶子、昆虫标本之类的纪念品（你自己说是有纪念价值的）。怎知来了个项链，哈哈，很漂亮，色彩缤纷，也许你是希望我在21岁里可以像蝴蝶一样，披着灿烂的色彩往自己喜欢的地方飞去吧！谢谢你哦！
谢谢佳霓的提早贺词，哈哈，去年你也是贺错时间咧！不过真高兴，因为在忙碌的日子里你还记得我……

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生日协奏曲还未完成，因为我的生日还未到……

当生日的奏章变成了休止符，这也是我人生新路程的开始了！

P/S：我没拍起来，因为电话的相素不好……

昨天，当希望变成幻影时，
我没有哭泣……
因为，即将21岁的我，
是时候成长，向泪水告别了……
以后不会再用泪水作为威胁武器……
每一天都是恩赐，每件事情都是恩物……
我要学会长大，让自己每时每刻都活在感恩里……
使自己沉浸在爱的调和里，爱自己、爱家人、爱男友、爱知己、爱朋友、爱师长、爱别人、爱万物……
若我一直苦闷下去，那么我会少了爱他们的时间……
不了，21岁，要有所改变了……
成熟、宽容、理智……
我要去找你们了！
嘿，走着瞧……


P/S：悲 = 非 + 心，所以我不要“悲”了，因为我还有心啊……

昨天回来后整个人累垮了……
回家不是劳累的事情，所以我把它归纳成自己心灵上的累……
我不懂为什么最近的泪腺很浅……
所以时不时就会让泪水净化双眼……
也许是因为考试前的反常现象吧！
刚才吃饭时候想到……
原来“人”是很简单的……
它由两个笔画组成而已……
为什么我就没有想到呢？
人，其实只要简单就好……
偶然想起张洪量的歌：
“人要永远活在青春期，很多事就没有那么顾虑，
只要你爱我，我爱你，爱来爱去干脆抱在一起……
只要你要我，我要你，要来要去干脆不要分离……”
“人”字是简单的，
所以我必须一切从简……
我不会再向各方面施压，我不会再以我的眼光看世界，我不会硬碰硬的去索取我要的，我不会被自己的情绪控制着，我不会再说无理头的冷笑话，我不会再为自己增添想象，我不会再怀有过分的热诚……
以后，只要一切都好，
我会静静的过生活，我会只说应该说的话，我会以平常心面对一切……
生活是如此简单，我不会把它复杂化了……
今天开始，我放空了……


P/S：考试真的很恐怖，我都被它感染了。Pls，EQ高一点啦！

Hiya, today woke up early in d morning around 6.15am...
Hehe, swept and mopped the floor...
Recently, 6 of my frens were quarantined due to H1N1 suspecter...
Btw, juz a rumour and they are pretty fine now...
After the H1N1 disturbance, we are taking seriously about our self hygiene...
Thx our lecturer in providing us the self made enzyme...
We had used it to clean our room... ^_^
Well, come back...
I like to post my blog in an incorrect time...
Before exam, busy wif assignments and etc...
Any people same wif me?
Think like myself is a weirdo...
Hehe...
This year's birthday, ruined again by exam...
Every year is the same since i was form 1...
Books and papers are my accompanyists...
K, i already used to it...
Nothing much to console about tis...
Luckily, i still got wishes...
Perhaps i could quote Wan Wei's word : "Well, I din expect much for b'day when I m growing up, I m happy enough for the wishes..."
Yeah, i should...
And i should stop groaning towards life... ^_^
Thx okasan in giving birth to me...
N grow me up for years...
I gained love from okasan, and I love okasan too...
Muackss...
Happy birthday!
A new life is born and a new life is gained...

P/S: Thx my daddy too who was taken away by God... Your spirit will always remained... We miss u, daddy!

Juz came back from Yoga...
Tiring leg, tiring knee, tiring ankle, tiring arm, tiring elbow n etc...
Yesterday was a great nite for us...
We won d champion for the theater competition among our batch n KPLI's...
When the 1st runner up was announced, we were sad indeed because we thought tat we had failed...
U know, the competitors were soooooo strong!!
We expected that we could win at first but when we watched the last few groups' performances, our enthusiasm were gone with d applauses...
They were creative and yet, funny as well...
These were the things that we should learned from them... ^_^
When the MC announced that, sound like this "Johan bagi pertandingan teater anjuran... dimenangi oleh, JALUR GEMILANG, dipersembahkan oleh pelajar PISMP BC Semester 3!!"
Wow, I shocked a little while... Then straight away we all screamed like mad... Keep on screaming happily n jumping as high as possible...
Haha...
I will never forget the moment we trained the theater...
Laughter, disappointment, frustrated...
But still, we learned something from it...
Do u guys remember?
We r destined to perform a lot of performances during our life here...
Standing in The Eyes of The World, Merdeka Choir, English Nite Choir (Do Re Mi) as the best performance, Mid Autumn Nite Theater, Champion for Lantern Making Competition, and last  but not least, Champion for yesterday's Theater Competition...
U guys really... Talented...
Thx for leaving d footprints in my life...
I very appreciate of it...

P/S: I want the biscuits roll in the hamper... Leave some for me ya...  
 

当我老了

当我老了，

不再是原来的我。

请理解我，

对我有一点耐心。

当我把菜汤洒到自己的衣服上时，

当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，

请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。

当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，

请耐心地听我说，

不要打断我。

你小的时侯，

我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，

直到你进入梦乡。

当我需要你帮我洗澡时，

请不要责备我。

还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？

当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，

请不要嘲笑我。

想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。

当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，

请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。

就像你小时候学习走路时，

我扶你那样。

当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，

请给我一些时间让我回想。

其实对我来说，

谈论什么并不重要。

只要你能在一旁听我说，

我就很满足。

当你看着老去的我，

请不要悲伤。

理解我，

支持我，

就像你刚开始学习如何生活时我对你那样。

当初我引导你走上人生的路，

如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。

给我你的爱和耐心，

我会报以感激的微笑，

这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。

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这篇章，我曾读过好几次了……

读了再读，都有不同的感想……

然而，我没有做到……

我又回到学院来了……
才把衣服、床单“们”都“晒”好了……
看看自己的部落格……
超久没有Update了……

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每次要从家里回来……
晴空都会被我看成是雨天……（也没有这样够力啦！）
我讨厌这种“显”的感觉……
每次看到朋友，一定会说：“某某，很显哦，又回来了……”
“是咯，在家的时间很快过！”某某答……
是的，在家的时间，似乎被调快了……
还没适应自己回到家乡的心情，
忽然又说要回去了……

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每当要回来学院，

手上一定会捧着大包小包……

打开一看，

食物、食物、还是食物……

闹饥荒似的……

我告诉过自己：“陈芷珊，你可以潇洒一点吗？不要带这么多东西回来，搞得自己狼狈不堪……”

一样的东西，

家里的好像特别好吃、特别好用……

家里的白饭特别香、家里的100 Plus特别好喝、家里的Milo特别浓、家里的洗发水洗了特别滑、家里买的水果特别甜、家里买回来的Peanut Butter特别好吃、家里买来的Gardenia面包特别软……

结果，我就只好出绝招——“硬塞”……

无非是要把袋子塞破……

妈妈和弟弟是帮凶……

带Jagung回去啦、要不要带葡萄啊、橙有三粒nia，因为你没有讲你要回来，所以我们没有买、罐头要带吗、饭这样少够吃咩、鱼这样放会坏的、Milo粉拿去、鸡精咧，拿了吗、你那边制水哦，要带一些水回去吗、要打包什么吗……

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虽然这些日子以来都无法变成潇洒的一族……

狼狈的扛着行李，它并不沉重……

它因为爱而轻了……

这不是一个累死你的爱……

所以我爱、我愿……

P/S：我最近终于有时间看书了……

Juz feel that want to post something here...
Nothing much feeling these days...
Already exhausted with d courseworksssssssssssss...
N every ppl were 'pek cek' during these time... (I dun knw wat's d better word to describe 'pek cek')
Haha...
We could understand as well...
We all nid to rush with all the stuffs...
Compete with d limited time...
Everyday sleep around 3 am something...
While most of us were sleeping and fishing in d class, all know, but juz pretended that nothing happened...
Rushed for d lecturer's steps to get d signature...
Dedicated to my frens...
Congratz, we are still survived, teehee...
Yes, we had passed March!! *Horray!!*
What ever happened during d "hectic" moment should be forgiven...
Come on guys, lets say "sorry" to each other and please, d one who had received gv some respond such like "never mind", "it's ok", "dun mentioned about that" to the apologetic's ...
Yes, we can!  ^_^
N we should... :P
To gain our own 'rezeki' as well...

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Busy life stopped temporary...
Now continue with other small little tiny jobs which is known as 'ISL'...
Wow, a lot to deal with...
N some more...
D water crisis occured... >.<
Nid to carry and refill d water day by day...
Not a light matter my frens...
Think that I already carried for times...
N got little mice on my arms.... *Hyperbole*
Hehe...
Good days every one...
Hope so to me...
N ya...
I would like to say "Minta maaf", "Sorry", “对不起”, "Paiseh", "Dui Mm Jv", "Sumimasen", "Mianda ne"...
To every one which I had made u angry, annoy, sad, pekcek, beh tahan, beh song n etc...
Sincerely through my heart to urs...
Coz we are linked together babe... ^_^

P/S: Going to deal with host of tiny jobs... Tata...

今天的散文展览，大家都尽心尽力去完成……
感恩大家……
感恩讲师……
感恩我的组员……
感恩杨老师……
感恩永豪……
感恩我的手在酸痛，因为代表着它还有知觉……
感恩我的脚趾一直在抽筋，因为这代表身体仍然会感到不适……
所以，
我现在的心情是酸爽参半的……

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愕然发现，
原来我还无法让身边的人发出自然的笑……
我好羡慕他们哦，可以看到你的美丽笑容……
一直以来我都自以为是……
认为自己是天下无双……
结果，
我错了……
原来我还是普通人一个……
是时候检讨自己了……

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报告报告时间表：

早上６点起床、冲凉、吃早餐……

早上7点下去准备展览……

早上8点开幕当司仪……

早上9点开始一直到傍晚6点半，泡茶、讲茶、找讲师、打包午餐、泡茶、讲茶、收拾、布置课室，一刻都没有停下来，感觉自己一直在走、站、蹲、跑，很累，也疯了……
傍玩6点半到晚上8点，回房、冲凉、洗衣、晾衣、收衣、面子书、别扭……
晚上8点半到11点，整理课业……
晚上11点到现在，反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思、反思……
反思自己、反思课业、反思活动……
现在到未来，会是个未知数……
没关系，反正今天我失眠了……

明天的行程：
早上8点到4点半，上课……
傍晚7点到某某时候，补课……
某某时候到某某某时候，功课……

后天的……我不知道……

我想让自己暂时化成一缕烟，飞上天……
那时候，我可以到处去流浪……
到时候，我可以时时刻刻陪在你的身边……
那时候，我可以在你心烦时听你诉说……
我可以在你苦闷时吸收苦水……
我可以陪你一起高兴、玩乐……
我到处都是，随手可得，你一把手就可以把我捉牢……
我能够陪你一起度过喜怒哀乐……

我不喜欢让我身边的人为我担忧……
因此，我流泪不会让你看见……
因为我是一缕烟……
每当下雨了……
可能我在流泪……
可是别担心，
在泪水的背后有一座牢固的堤……
它会防止水灾……
别担心，别担心……
“人的眼泪，是一份执著……”
那么烟的眼泪，也许是一份肯定……
肯定了能够时时陪伴它的人……
这是一股喜悦的泪……

Hmm, when we finished assembly this morning...
Our Miss Monitor informed us that today's class until 3pm (for morning session) is cancelled...
Wow, what's the feeling for a person with panda eyes and didn't sleep enough for yesterday? :p
Immediately went back to hostel and changed back to shirts...
Throw my Baju Kurung into the pail for washing afterwards...
*Knock knock*...
Door is knocked...
I will always have a bad prediction when  my room's door is knocked...
"12 pm please gather in class, lecturer is coming..."
Let me throw a light here...
I m always  proud of my prediction...
What to do?
Take back my Baju Kurung from a wet pail...
Luckily didn't wet much... (Yuncks... I also feel geli to wear it again... But no choice)...
Haha...
Life is a pop quiz...
What to do is just always be prepared...
^_^
Nice day every one...
All the best to who starts their practicum's life and first time in School Based Experience as well...
Good luck for me in not being caught by lecturer while I nap in the class later... :P
Though I won't...
But who knows?
"Life is always a pop quiz..."


P/S: Deepest sympathy to our lecturer, though your body is gone, your spirit will always remained...