Tuesday 24 August 2010

乱乱来……

不上面子书是好的,
最起码我不用在这星期做临死的挣扎……
虽然平时已经在挣扎了,
可是临死前的那一断似乎比较痛苦……

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心情怎么怪怪的?
假期要来了,
应该是很高兴才对……
为什么就是无法高兴起来?
总觉得酸酸的、苦苦的……
该去哪儿找乐子啊?

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徘徊在同一条道路上,
走不出来……
每次很怕睡觉……
因为睡觉一定会梦……
我不想梦……
现实生活累人……
梦更累……
我讨厌!

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请原谅近期的我……
这边未完成就要顾虑那边……
脑子不停地转动……
下一秒的事情已像影片那样浮现在我脑海……
尝试让自己静下……
可是在静下的那一刻……
我睡着了……
第二天又悄悄地走来了……
重复第一天的忙碌……
永无止境,才是进步的空间……
难道停下来,就是退步的表现吗?


P/S:大便……



Thursday 19 August 2010

What's wrong with me?

Facebook is no longer be with me...
And I have forgotten that I actually still 'bond' with blogspot...
Plan to post something here...
But I have too much to express...
Just make some selection...
Well, this semester, I have such a miserable days...
I don't know what's the reason...
Always appear in my mind is the bad thoughts...
I m trying to make the days not so annoying...
But still, I failed to make it...
Lingering between the misery, I m still in the maze...
KNS&^%$#@...
I really want to shout out a lotttttttttttttttsssssssssssssssssssssss of bad words...
3 years already gone, yet, I still apply the same thoughts...
Why can't I change my mindset?
Why don't I love my age and my life?
Why m I keep on blaming?
Why don't I reflect myself?
A lecturer asked me today: "Why have you turned into a quiet person in this semester?"
Ya, a good question...
Me too don't know how to answer about it...
My miserable thoughts have changed my mouth into steel...
Hard and heavy...
Sometimes I feel like my speeches are pointless...
And I even have a hard time to organize a phrase...
I have some curiosities in myself too...
"What's wrong with me this semester?"
"Do I really want to be cool and calm?"
"Do I try to avoid revealing by people?"
I m not trying to find out the answers...
Because it maybe too hurts...
All I want is --->

I
Need 
Breathing

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